"I was, point blank, just drinking too much," Chrissy Teigen said in an interview with Cosmopolitan this week.
I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there's just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It's not a good look for me, for John, for anybody.
During trip to Bali with her family, featured in the Instagram posts below, Teigen decided to reclaim her health with a life of sobriety.
This isn't the first time we've heard about Teigen's complicated relationship with alcohol.
Teigen first publicly acknowledged her alcohol abuse back in 2013:
Teigen said that alcoholism runs in her family. And being a spokesperson for alcohol brands like Captain Morgan and Smirnoff doesn't make sobriety easy. "Imagine everything we have," Teigen said. "Everything is there, always. I don't know how to go to an awards show and not drink."
Teigen also talked recently about her anxiety and postpartum depression:
After opening up to Cosmopolitan about her drinking habits, she received some criticism.
She screen grabbed several comments and shared them in a tweet:
The Internet came through with support, including from celebrity Emmy Rossum:
Teigen is back to her life in Los Angeles, where alcohol is easily accessible. But that still doesn't change the fact that she wants to live a sober life. "I used to think it was kind of nutty to have to go totally sober," she said, "but now I get it. I don't want to be that person...I have to fix myself."
We wish you the best, Chrissy!
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