I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there's just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It's not a good look for me, for John, for anybody.
During trip to Bali with her family, featured in the Instagram posts below, Teigen decided to reclaim her health with a life of sobriety.
We had the most beautiful, wonderful time in Bali. Como Shambhala, my body and mind have never felt so clear. Thank you for getting me to move again (first time since I was 8 months pregnant and Luna is ummmm 15 months old) and giving me some much-needed body and nutrition schooling! And thank you for dressing us in your beautiful, traditional ceremonial costumes! And don't worry, everyone. I still love me some .99 two tacos. Balance! #notbeingpaidtosaythis
This isn't the first time we've heard about Teigen's complicated relationship with alcohol.
I feel like if I say this publicly, the chances of me succeeding will rise. I, am going sober. First for a month, then taking it from there.— christine teigen (@chrissyteigen) April 17, 2013
Teigen said that alcoholism runs in her family. And being a spokesperson for alcohol brands like Captain Morgan and Smirnoff doesn't make sobriety easy. "Imagine everything we have," Teigen said. "Everything is there, always. I don't know how to go to an awards show and not drink."
After opening up to Cosmopolitan about her drinking habits, she received some criticism.
Hiding behind a computer screen makes it easy. Don't read those. I support you!!! ❤️❤️❤️— Emmy Rossum (@emmyrossum) August 22, 2017
You're a queen everyone loves you don't listen to these trolls— Best Coast (@BestCoast) August 22, 2017
Teigen is back to her life in Los Angeles, where alcohol is easily accessible. But that still doesn't change the fact that she wants to live a sober life. "I used to think it was kind of nutty to have to go totally sober," she said, "but now I get it. I don't want to be that person...I have to fix myself."